Girls Weekend

What a marvelous weekend! And not in the way you are thinking.  Yes. I had a wonderful girls weekend. The overall turnout was a little low. Just me and one other girl.  But that girl is the MOST important girl in my life. My precious (8-months today!!!) daughter.



When you have twins (or more than one child for that matter), you really miss out on one-on-one bonding time. Sure – there have been times where I have taken either Maddie or Ethan to the store while Justin has stayed home with the other – but having an entire 24-hours with just one of my children was one of the best things ever! (Don’t get me wrong.. I missed Ethan like crazy – but he was having a fantabulous time with his daddy and pop!!!)



So this weekend it was just me and my girl.  I really think she digs being an “only child” because she was SO incredibly happy for the entire time with minimal fussing!

We were able to run 2 hours worth of errands with smiles on Saturday. Maddie loved being a big girl in the cart (and this happened because she had a little moment in the Ergo. It was so humid out!)



She slept like a champ from 6:15-5:40 Sunday morning. I was worried that bed time sleep would be rough! THis was only the second time she and Ethan were EVER apart overnight. The other time being when she was a mere 1 day old and she had to spend her first night outside of the womb in the NICU.  But – she slept just fine. In fact- Ethan has been getting up earlier than her lately she she probably loved sleeping until whenever SHE wanted to get up (which happened to be early.)

Since my girl did so well in the big girl cart on Satruday – that is how we grocery shopped Sunday morning. She laughed and talked her way through the entire store. It was so fun! When we were checking out, she realized she could actually try and reach for things – so I’ll have to be a little more mindful of where her arms are in the future.

I found it so much easier to multi-task with just having one of my lovely kids around. I could easily move her into whatever room I wanted – contain her so she was safe- and get some stuff done. She loved bouncing in the kitchen and watching the refrigerator open and close while I prepped food!



I also brought Maddie to my school in the late morning. She was SO well behaved and did not fuss once! There were so many things for her to look at (and try and grab). I wore her for a majority of the time – but we got hot, so I also carried her and would let her sit on the floor by my feet.  I was proud of my little girl for being so well behaved.  She met a lot of new people and she is a funny little fake shy girl.  When she meets someone. She flashes them a smile, buries her head in my chest for 2 seconds – and then looks at them again-all smiles and giggles.. I love it.



I’ve gained a lot of valuable insight from this weekend. From my joy in my one-on-one time with her – and her joy in having ALL of my attention – I know that this will be something that is super important as M and E grow older. Just like I crave time with them – they will each want one-on-one time with Justin and me.  I would love to do this once a month – or once every other month and alternate children.

If I am being honest here – I almost feel as if by having twins – I was cheated out of getting that super special bonding time. Yes, we bonded. But their bonding time was cut in half. I know God chose me to be a twin momma for a reason and I trust in whatever reason that is. My love for each of them is greater than anything I’ve ever known – and it continues to grow daily. I would not trade my current position for the world – but sometimes I just get to thinking and wondering.

Ten Things Tuesday

1.  My summer break is officially over. I’ve been back in school for a few days because I changed rooms and I had to get everything unpacked and set up. It is going well, but I still have a ways to go.

Upon Entering:

After 16 hours of work:


2. We’ve had a lot of fun at weddings this summer..with another still to come! Justin’s best man is getting married soon and we know it will be a blast!



3. School is going really well for Madeline and Ethan.  Their naps have not really lengthened yet, but they are still happy when they come home.  They are falling asleep at around 6:30/7 and are sleeping about 12 hours. It is so nice to have a few hours at night to unwind and prepare for the next day.


4. Madeline has her first ear infection. Waaah. But – our pediatrician is amazing and met us on SUNDAY morning so he could give her a quick check. Good thing. Little girl is already feeling better after some antibiotics!


5. My little boy is on.the.move!  School was closed on Friday so my brother helped out and watched M& E. I got this video of Ethan and am just so thrilled (but also a nervous wreck. Wait until they are going in two different directions…)

6.  I’ve got a little bit of a later start time this week (800 as opposed to 7:30) and don’t need to get in early to prep since the kids aren’t back yet.  SO – I’ll be gyming it in the morning this week.  My aim is for 2 times.. if I get there 3, then woohoo!


7. We went to our first parade this weekend! Our town has a great Labor Day parade and the kids loved it! Pop came as well and we had so much fun!




8. Parade wise – this awesome jet kept flying overhead!



9. I need new sneakers. Badly. I am not a fan of the current color selection for the ASICS I usually get.


10. We are getting rid of our pool. Yep. We used it 3 times this summer and it is SUCH a pain in the butt to take care of. I can’t wait for a bigger yard.

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Thinking Out Loud – 8/28. A New School Year

The new school year is knocking at my door. I’ve never entered a year with my mind in SO many different places. I’ve already had a few months of experience as a working mom, but now it seems very different…both from the school aspect and the mommy aspect. Right now all of my thinking tends to lean towards worries and anxieties. So – this may be a downer of a post, but I am sure there are other people in my shoes – or others who HAVE been in my shoes.

Let’s break it down.

Ethan and Madeline.

  • Daycare seems to be going well.  Great. I am happy their are so adaptable. Are they getting enough nurturing? I know the ratio is 1 adult to 4 children – but come on. If I had quadruplets, I would never feel like I am giving each child enough attention.
  • Will they ever nap there? Naps have been hit or miss.  They are sleeping. GREAT. But not very long. Hopefully in time nap lengths will increase.  The positive – night sleep as been incredible so far.
  • Once everything gets going, I won’t see M and E until 4:30. I leave for work between 6 and 6:15. They don’t get up until 6:30/7:00. How on earth? That’s going to be rough. Justin is going to facetime me, but still. It is NOT the same. Not even close.
  • Are E and M going to create a stronger bond with their teachers than with me? They spend so much time there. Yes, I know I will always be there momma and it is different, but its scary.
  • How often are they going to get sick. Ugh. Germs. Hoping this will help them to build strong immune systems, but no one likes a sick baby.


  • So little time so much to do. Story of my life.
  • Common Core. I loathe you.
  • Teaching for an entire school year? I haven’t done that since 2012. That seems hard. Really hard. On the plus side, I won’t have used all of my sick days for half-day pregnancy related issues. That will be nice.
  • Planning. Correcting. All that jazz.  Need to time manage better at school and socialize less during my free period.
  • Way to many new curriculum aspects. Try as I may – I think it is going to be rough getting familiar with all of our new programs.  Practice makes perfect. Right?
  • Mild winter. Please. No snow days. I want to get out as early in possible in June.
  • I really hope I have a smart board or enos board. That would make life so much easier.


  • Guilt. Guilt over not enough time for my children. Not enough time for my students. My husband. My dog. There is just not enough time for everyone. How am I going to prioritize?!
  • I NEED to know what the routine will be. How long will it take me to get E and M packed? Thank goodness Justin is doing all the bottle washing.
  • Speaking of washing..Thursday was laundry day over the summer. And when we had a nanny. WHen will the clothes get washed? Another thing to add to the weekend list.
  • Working out. So important. When? Well, I joined a 9.99/mo gym next to daycare. A few days a week, I plan on grabbing a quick workout before I pick up M and E. But that is wrong..right? I should be picking up my kids ASAP. Not working out instead.  Insert more guilt.

I know my children are young and may not even remember this. But I go back and forth about being a working mom so much. I’ve commited to my job and I will do everything I can to make sure my students learn. But will my children resent me for sending them off to someone else? Or admire me for working. It is such a crazy thought process. I’m not sure if I will ever know what the best answer is. Work. Not work.

But, I am working. I will miss them dearly each and every day.  I will hug them tight the moment I see them and smother them with kisses from head to toe. I will cherish every moment we spend together and have quality time together. I will celebrate their successes – even if I don’t witness them first hand. Every day, this will get easier.

One day at a time.

One hour at a time.

One moment at a time.

Transition to Daycare

We’ve been going through a big transition over here. For the past two months, I’ve had the pleasure of spending each and every day with my little ones.  I won’t tell you that I enjoyed every single second of it.  After all, Madeline cut two teeth and Ethan decided to boycott his afternoon nap for a solid 10 days.  Those are some tough times. In hindsight, those times weren’t so bad. I feel so incredibly blessed to have two happy and healthy children – and even more blessed to have been at home with them for the past two months.



However – all good things must come to an end. That’s what they say, right?  I’ve been working this week to set up my classroom and prepare for this upcoming school year…and next Tuesday, things will be back in full swing.  With that being said – I will clearly not be able to spend time with Ethan and Madeline all day long.  When I returned to work last April, we thought it would be best to have a nanny come into our home.  From that experience, I have learned that I do not want another person in my home every day.  SO – Madeline and Ethan will be going to school (daycare) every day.


They started full time on Monday – after having two transitions days on Thursday and Friday of last week.  Talk about a ball full of emotion. This has been incredibly hard on me – and fortunately, incredibly EASY on Ethan and Madeline.  I am glad we used some transition days and that their first full day wasn’t a day when I was expected to perform at work… I needed a few days to be a wreck and cry 4839 times.



So – how did we transition?  Day 1 at daycare as only 2 hours.  I was there for all of that time.  We met the teachers and we played on the floor.  While M and E would occasionaly turn and look for me, they were more interested in what was going on around them. New toys, lots of babies.  Day 2 started with an early morning drop off with Justin.  Justin will be bringing them to daycare each day, so it was time for him to see how it all worked.  I was there as well.  We followed a typical drop off and put M & E in their chairs for breakfast – gave them a kiss, and left.  (With tears streaming down my face).  The littles ones didn’t even miss a beat and continued shrieking and banging on the table as we walked out.  We watched them on a closed circuit TV for about a half hour. They were happy.  Momma left feeling a little bit better and picked them up after a half day.

Day 3 – Monday – was a full day with a drop off by both Mom and Dad. Again, Madeline and Ethan weren’t phased by the drop off and walk out. Phew.  They stayed from 8:00-4:30 – which will be a typical day for them.  Their teachers said they were a little cranky, but I could have predicted that because Maddie is congested and Ethan is teething.

Day 4 – Yesterday. Another full day, but I did not go with Justin to drop them off.  SO HARD. Lots of tears after they drove off.  But we are easing into it and I must get used to it. I am actually being spoiled right now because I am not driving to work at my typical time so I get to SEE them in the morning. Once we really get going.. I won’t see them until I pick them up. (Not sure how I’ll survive…)



So – we are making it through. I have a ton of fears and anxieties about everything surround Ethan and Madeline, day care, my working… I’ll address that soon. Sometimes it just feels good to get everything out in writing. What is most important is that while I am having difficulty, Madeline and Ethan are young enough that they are incredibly attached to Justin and myself- and haven’t quite developed that stranger danger yet.  Hopefully by the time stranger danger kicks in, they will have a special bond with their two amazing teacher.

They tell me this is a lot harder on momma than it is on baby. I believe it – but that doesn’t make it any easier.

Getting to Know Yours Truly

Sometimes, you just get busy and your blog gets neglected for an extended period of time.  It happens.  I saw this post on Ashley’s blog and thought it was fun – so I’m giving it shot!

I’m gearing up for a new school year and my dear, dear Ethan and Madeline are at their second full day of school (enter sobs…). I’ll post about our transitions at some point.  Right now it is hard to think about…


1. I’m happiest when my beautiful children are smiling, happy, and cuddly. 


2. Especially when we get out of the house with Daddy and enjoy our time as a family.

3. I’ve always wanted to learn how to knit and/or sew. (Weird?! yes, I know)


4. My family and I are very close. My parents and brother have been instrumental in our surviving the first months with twins and my father-in-law LOVES facetiming his grandbabies

5. I was a terrible clarinet player. I wanted to play an instrument in middle school and promptly quit 2 weeks later when I really just could NOT read music.

6. My first job was at the Gap. Uhh..talking about spending every penny you make..

7. I could probably eat dark chocolate everyday. In fact, I do unless I am cleansing..

8. I stole… my husband’s heart. 




9. I was born on the same day as Alicia SIlverstone (??) lol had to google to find someone

10. My all-time favorite film is Love and Basketball, 13 Going on 30

11. I make a pretty mean… uhm. Bottle?

12. I am still mad I didn’t pursue nursing while in college.

13. I met my husband at a bar. Ha.

14. I always knew I wanted to get a dog  (but oh man, he really tests my patience with two little ones..)



15. I’m not afraid to go to bed early on a Friday night. Before children this held true, too.  I need an abnormal amount of sleep to be happy.

16. I make the best eh.. I guess you’d have to ask those who consume my food.

17. I have almost no diapers left. Uh oh.

18. I always cry when I think about just how fast my babies are growing up and I cry when I think about being away from them every day.




19. I am an American but I don’t really care about politics.

20. I spent a lot of time getting my twins on the same schedule. Twin mommas know how important it is to get your kiddos sleeping and eating at the same time.

21. I wish my folks would stay exactly as they are.  Wouldn’t change a thing about them!

22. At 5, I was deeply in love with Polly Pocket.

23. I believe if everyone was more patient the world would be a better place.

24. I can’t stand people who are late.

25. Whenever Law and Order is on, I’ll watch it.


What makes you the happiest?!


Have a great day :)


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Ethan & Madeline: 7 Months Old

I just cannot believe that it has been over 7 months since my two little blessings entered this world.  People aren’t lying when they said time FLIES.  I was super skeptical of this fact during those sleepless nights and robotic days in the first few months.  I never thought we’d make it to summer, let alone the end of summer.  Yet here we are, 7 months old twins (as of last Friday)!!



This post has been sitting in my drafts for almost a week. Week one of M & E’s 8th month has been TRYING. I hope things get sorted out soon.  For all you mommas (especially twin mommas) who do it alone.. God bless you. If i didn’t have help, a few hours a week, I don’t know where I’d be.

Ethan Matthew



Based on our approximate weights and measurements, Ethan is 18.5lbs and about 27.25 inches.  Ethan has learned so much this month.  In the past few weeks, he caught up to his sister and is sitting independently.  I still place pillows or a person behind him because he is super spastic and sometimes will just throw himself backwards. Ouch.  Justin and I often refer to him as a bull in a China shop.  He is getting up on all fours and rocking back and forth – and he will also dig his face into the ground and catapult forward.  He links rolls and inch-worming in a circle together in order to get to the toys he wants. I’m sure he will be on the move any day now, so Justin and I are concentrating on babyproofing.  Ethan is my sweet, laid back, happy boy. He is very go with the flow and LOVES to flirt. He smiles at all the ladies with his gummy grin and is very social with people he knows as well as random strangers.  Hoping he will be able to help his little sister at daycare in a few weeks.



Ethan is eating 28-32oz of formula a day.  Our breastfeeding journey is a story for another day.  He is a happy spitter. But man is it messy. It has calmed down in the past few days, but it got BAD for a while.

Up until about 2 weeks ago, he was doing super well with purees and ate a ton of different foods including banana, apple, bear, broccoli, green beans, sweet potato, quinoa, chicken, carrot, raspberry, turkey, rice, corn… Then he decided that he was no longer interested in opening his mouth. The boy legit sits there with a look that tells me I am wasting his time..and seals his lips.  Its a damn steel trap and they do not open.. At all.  He has picked up finger foods and put them in his mouth, but as soon as they touch is tongue, he pukes.  Its driving me crazy and I don’t know what to do. I am sure little man is teething so this may be a contributor.  We have a pedi appointment on Wednesday so I’ll be bringing it up there. He has however, started drinking out of a sippy cup. Well, a straw cup.  Sippy cups just didn’t work.



Speaking of teeth..since eating and teeth are sort of related.. we’ve still got none. And we seem cranky. So I HOPE they cut soon. I feel like teething is lasting forever.  I can SEE them through is gums.


Little boy sleeps like a champ! Let’s start naps:  We transitioned down to 2 naps right after they turned 6 months.  They were having trouble with the afternoon cat nap – and were waking up at 5am every morning. So – right now Ethan will go down at 9.  He tends to sleep anywhere from 75-120 minutes.  If its a short nap, he is usually the one who gets up. His afternoon nap depends on the length of the morning nap, but he goes down between 1 & 2 and will sleep 90-120 minutes. Since entering his 8th month, Ethan is starting to be

Ethan has always been a super night time sleeper.  We made bedtime a little earlier with the 2 nap schedule. We generally start bath time between 615 & 640 – and put down by 7 at the latest.  Ethan will generally roll around his entire crib before settling down in the corner closest to Maddie’s crib.  He sleeps through the night waking between 5:30-6:30.  He only wakes up if something scares him. And man does he scream when he is scared.

Likes: Mommy and Daddy tickles, blowing raspberries, “ba-ba-ba”, Sophie, o-ball rattle, walking around outside with mommy, the claw game with daddy, the gator on his activity center, toy train, bath time, diaper changes (WHAT?! he cracks up when we change his diaper..I am sure he is thinking…suckers….), the Hot Dog song, sucking on his toes…



Dislikes: Eating solids in any size, shape, or form.  Being tired, getting wrapped in his towel after bath

Nicknames: E, E-money, E -train, chubbamonga (our favorite), chubbs

Firsts: being away from home for more than 2 nights, going to the beach, feet in the ocean, sitting independently


Madeline Grace 



Oooh Miss Madeline. She is our feisty firecracker.  Maddie weighs approximately 17lbs and is around 26.5 inches long.  Miss Madeline has been sitting unassisted for some time now.  She scootches backwards on her belly and “swims” (as Justin and I call it) without moving anywhere on the floor – but isn’t quite up on all fours yet like her brother.  She is very gentle and pays attention to detail..grabbing for the tiny ribbons on dolls.  Maddie is always looking around when she is in new places and loves taking everything in.  Madeline knows what she wants.. and while she can’t tell us-she will make sure we all know when she doesn’t have what she wants.  She is super smiley when she is well rested, but is very shy around people she doesn’t know.  When with people she is unfamiliar with, she panics and looks for mommy or daddy.  Once she warms up to you, she is your best friend and loves giving smiles.  Shrieking is her most used vocal sound right now.


Madeline also drinks between 28-32oz of formula a day, however, she is not a at least I only get puked on by one baby!  Recently Maddie has decided that she no longer likes being held while she is fed..ever. She prefers to eat lying down on the floor.  This works just fine for the two feedings when I am alone – because I actually lay both on the floor and feed them. But I miss holding her in the morning and before bed and getting that cuddle time.

Solids wise, Madeline loved everything we gave her. She has eaten everything that Ethan ate- but would eat more and just be more content while eating (Ethan was apathetic about it..). Then, a few days after Ethan decided he was going to reject all food.. Madeline decided she would follow suit. I am at a loss guys. I can’t wait to talk to my pedi.  I know that they get their nutrition from their bottles, but it is super frustrating for me. (It’s already hard to try and feed solids to 2 babies at once…)



Teeth, like Ethan.. we are at zilch. Hers appear to be even closer than his. However, I’ve decided that I won’t expect any teeth until 9 months. (*Update: We’ve cut our bottom left tooth a few days after we turned 7 months! Yay, big girl!!!)


Madeline, like Ethan, is a pretty solid sleeper.  She NEEDS her sleep or girlfriend is a crab!  She goes down at 9 and again between 1 & 2. Ethan is always the one to wake up – and sometime Madeline will continue to sleep afterwards.  Our one issue with Madeline is her need for the paci while sleeping.

Night time sleep is a little more broken for Maddie. She can sleep through the night, but usually wakes 1-2 times.  We should just let her fuss and go back to sleep, but we (read Justin) usually end up giving her the paci and she goes back to sleep immediately.If she can find it herself, she can put it back in herself, but thats not always the case. She weened herself off of it during the day – so I am hoping this happens at night soon.  We will probably set a time where we will take it away if necessary.

Likes: Mickey Mouse, Jumping, pulling up on mommy’s fingers and standing, being held on top of daddy’s head, Sophie, her paci while sleeping, her dolly, shrieking, walks, sitting outside, looking at herself in the mirror, chewing on frozen wash clothes, kicking her right leg (?)



Dislikes: being tired, being hungry, meeting new people, solids, teething.. (oh wait, that me who hates teething. I’m sure she does, too)..

Nicknames: Maddie, Princess, Liney, Dandelion, Crabby Maddie


I just can’t believe we are less than 5 months away from their first birthday! Better get to planning!


Have a great weekend :)


Two years ago today, Justin and I had THE most amazing night of our lives.  We committed to one another for the rest of our lives and partied our butts off with our wonderful family and friends.



To the man that I love so dearly:



Thank you for being my rock – my support.  For teaching me to have more patience and appreciate the small things in life.  It is an honor to be able to call you my husband – and watching you be the best daddy in the world to Madeline and Ethan is simply incredible.



Your love for those two little people we created is greater than anything I have ever seen. Watching you play, read, and interact with them melts my heart.  I am so thankful to have you in my life.  Here’s to many more years of love and happiness. Though we will never act old, I look forward to growing old with you.

Happy Second Anniversary <3

My Postpartum Journey

For my entire adult life…up until we found out that I was pregnant with twins, I had a vision of what my pregnancy would be like.  Inspired by a mother that I work out with in a group circuit training class, I planned to remain just as active as ever during my pregnancy.  I would run, lift weights, continue to take classes – just being sure to modify exercises if necessary. I certainly would not use pregnancy as an excuse to eat unhealthy foods.  My reasoning was simple. I worked super hard to get into great shape and have a body that I was proud of – and I wasn’t going to let 9 months of pregnancy pull me into a place where I had been before- feeling flabby, overweight, and just not happy with my body.


Wouldn’t it be nice if our lives worked out according to our plans and visions?  Well – my plan did not go as I had originally intended.  When Justin and I found out we were pregnant with twins, we were SHOCKED.  We have no family history.  I was seeing an infertility specialist because I had 2 consecutive miscarriages prior to getting pregnant with Madeline and Ethan, but before we had even finished completing all of my tests or thought about possible treatments, we found out I was pregnant x2.


If you’ve ever experienced a loss – you know how scary another pregnancy can be. If you experienced two losses – then you really know what I mean.  I was going to follow every.single.piece of advice my doctor gave me because I needed these babies so much. I needed to know that I would carry babies to term and become a mom.

So – no exercise besides walking. Okay. Whatever it takes.

Gain plenty of weight? Fine. If thats going to help – I’ll do it.


My prior “pregnancy vision” went out the door.  As I’ve mentioned, I found myself 70+lbs heavier on delivery day.  I knew it would take time for the weight to come off.  But the sleepless nights, busy days, and overall exhaustion led me to make poor choices nutritionally.  I was fueling my body with processed foods, sugars, and caffeine.  Even once I started getting more sleep, I found myself exhausted and feeling lousy just about all of the time.  Pre-pregnancy, I could easily turn down oreos, candy bars, and chips.  But I no longer had the willpower to resist.  I knew I had to make some changes in my diet – or I’d never see the changes that I desired – physically, mentally, or emotionally.



Once June rolled around, I knew it was time to do something. I was 5 months postpartum and just ready to see more changes.  I knew I’d have 2 months off from work to really get a fitness routine together.  In order for that fitness to pay off, I needed to jump start my healthy eating habits-but I needed help.

Advocare was the help that I needed.  I had seen a friend continuously post about adovcare on facebook – her success, the sucess of her clients. I messaged her one day to inquire about the Advocare 24 Day Challenge..and the rest is history.



I began my 24-Day challenge on at the end of June.  Every day, I felt a little better than the day before. More energy. A focused mind.  A happier momma.  My clothes also started fitting better.  With the clean eating plan laid out by adovcare and their amazing products (that I still continue to use even after the challenge), I was able to get back on track, break through a weight loss plateau, and start feeling like myself again.



I saw real results while eating real food and supplementing my diet.  So real – that I ended up losing 7lbs and 12 inches in the 24 day time span. 12 freakin inches.  I’d show you my amazing progress pics, but I’m not about to post pictures in my underwear and sports bra on the interwebz.

I’m continuing on my postpartum journey. I have no timeframe goals because I know that I am fueling my body properly and working out hard.  However long it takes me to feel 100% comfortable again – is what it will be. I am proud of all I have accomplished and super proud that I carried over two humans inside of me for 38 weeks.  I am thankful that I took the plunge and did the advocare challenge because it has helped motivate me to keep on track and push forward.


So – those are my random thoughts as I think out loud this Thursday.

Ever try an advocare products? Participated in a challenge?

Have a great day!!



Getting back into WIAW

I suppose there is no better time to get back into all of the link ups that I did before I lost my blog…

So today, I am linking up with Jenn and showing you my eats in a typical day (where several chocolate chips go unpictured).  First let me start off by saying that being home with twin (almost) 7-month olds creates a difficult task for mommas to prep healthy meals to eat.  In order to ensure that I have a week of clean eats, I usually spend sundays prepping my basic needs for the week which includes: chicken breast, hard boiled eggs, chopped veggies, and turkey meatloaf muffins.  That is certainly not the extent of variety I have in a week of eating, but it gives me some quick snacks and protein meal options.


Breakfast: 7:00am:



Steal Cut Oats with raspberries, blueberries, and 1 spoonful of Teddie’s Natural Peanut Butter


Snack: 10:00am – 


2 Hardboiled Egg Whites, Zucchini & Hummus


Lunch: 12:30pm


Salad made with spinach, sliced almonds, a little bit of bleu cheese, and chicken. Dressing was a vinaigrette.


Snack- 3:15



2 mini Turkey Meatloaf muffins  (they are good,I promise) & Fruit Punch Spark.


Dinner- 6:00



Chicken & Mashed Avocado with lime juice & celery on a slice of ezekial bread


Snack – 8:00



Kashi Puffs with almond milk blueberries, raspberries (looking eerily similar to my breakfast…)



Ethan & Madeline’s Birth Story

Wait. Is it abnormal to write a birth story when your children are almost 7 months old? Uhm. Oh, well.  I still remember the day clear as anything right now – but I am sure in the future certain details will fade – and I’d like to preserve the memory of this special day. If I write it down (and don’t lose my entire blog again), then I can always come back to read what happened.

Birth stories are marvelous – especially when it is your own. So I am linking of up Katie’s MIMM.

This is a LONG post. If birth stories aren’t your thing.. I won’t be offended.


January 7, 2014: 11:30pm. I go up stairs to lay in bed for the entire night. I had gotten into the habit of staying up late and watching Hollywood Game Night. I would stay up later than Justin – later than my in-laws.  I figured sitting downstairs on a couch that was fairly comfy and watching TV was WAY better there staring at the ceiling in a dark room. I spent the night trying not to scratch my rash, reading the final Divergent book, and creating a flipagram of my pregnancy on my phone. Bags were packed and in the car..and our 4:30am departure took FOREVER to arrive.

January 8, 2014: 4:00am. I rolled out of bed and waddled the get all washed up.  My inlaws met us downstairs. My heart was beating a gazillion times a minute and I was a bag of emotions. Excited to meet my babies. Scared of having a c-section – and totally unprepared for life with 2 newborns.  It was a blazing 2* outside. This winter freakin sucked as far as temperatures go. After our car heated up, we set off for a drive

Funny side note: I text my parents that we are headed to the hospital. They are going to meet us there later in the day. My dad apparently had some automated response and I got a text from him that said “On My Way”. Immediate breakdown. Justin and I requested visitors later in the day. We wanted it to just be us in the beginning. My hormonal self calls my mom hysterical asking here why was Dad on his way… She sleepily says.. Dad is right here in bed next to me. Woops. I don’t know what happened there.

5:00am: Arrive at the hospital. Right on time. We get settled into my pre-op room. And then 5 minutes later have to change rooms because the computer isn’t working there. Greeat.  Settle in to room #2.  Get the IV going, answer endless questions, blood draws, bathroom trips..and of course photo opps.  The duo of doctors from my practice come in to say hello- get a read on how I was feeling..which was fairly calm at that point.




7:36: Walk to operating room. Such a sterile, white room. I suppose that is good. I have awesome nurses (one was my nurse during my visits after Christmas.. Anne. Amazing woman) helping me.  It is very warm in the room – which everyone is commenting on how strange that it since it is usually cold.

They have me sit on the the operating table so the anesthesiologist can administer my spinal tap. One last time I asked to make sure that my catheter will not be put in until I was numb. I was assured that that was indeed the case. Phew.

This is where everything started going wonky for me.  I was told to round my back and try to push out my lower back. Um. EASY for someone to do who doesn’t have a gigantic belly that basically rested on my entire upper legs when I sit. I just could NOT do what they wanted me to do as hard as I tried. After about 5 minutes of them telling me what I needed to do and me failing, I started having a panic attack and crying… What if they did it wrong because I wasn’t positioned correctly. Maybe I’d start feeling what they were doing half way through. Maybe I wouldn’t be totally numb.  Maybe I’d die.

My doctor saw the commotion while she was scrubbing in. SHe stopped. Came to me. Held both of my hands and put her head against mine. She took deep breaths with me and assured me that everything was going to be just fine. I calmed. And I decided that she was, indeed, the best doctor ever.

So – the spinal was finally put in place. Justin came in with his fancy outfit. I felt nothing below my arms. Justin and I are smiling at each other, getting all excited, chatting. I tell him about what happened and my epic breakdown. The doctors are just chatting about whatever. So glad they didn’t talk me through the procedure.

Then, I realize that I am going to be one of those lucky ducks that gets nauseous from the spinal tap. Sweet.  Justin spends the next few minutes holding that pink hospital thing next to my face as I dry heave. Awesome. Apparently my heaves were violent because at one point, I flawed my arms and broke the arm rest of the table off. Everyone scrambled to fix it.




8:04: My doctor announces that Baby A is about to be delivered. (Nausea leaves :) ). Ethan Matthew is born. Weighing 6lbs and measuring 17.5 inches. Screaming.

8:05 Madeline Grace busts into the world weighing 7lbs 3 oz, measuring 18.5 inches. I mean it when I say bust. My doctors told me that they usually have to work quickly to get Baby B – have to really get in there.  Not Miss Madeline. She shot out of her sack herself.




Sweet baby cries fill the room. They hold both babies up over the curtain so we can see them. Absolute perfection. They were weighed, cleaned, and wrapped – then brought to Justin and I. It was a surreal feeling. There was NO WAY that these to babies were just inside of me. Newp. Not possible.





8:12 - Nurse tries to hand Justin two babies at once. Justin also sees some blood on the floor. He turns grey and says he needs to leave immediately. Not feeling well.  I tell him to go, that I will be just fine.  As a result, M & E will make there way to the nursery. Thats okay. They are here and they are safe..  I start feeling like I am going to blow chunks anyway.

The longest part of the whole procedure was getting closed back up. The nausea was back twice fold and Justin and my babies were gone. THe nurses were awesome though – making sure I had my puke catcher and keeping my mind busy with conversation.

8:30 – Rolled into recovery – where I see my husband laying in the bed in the room. Ha.  He gets up right away – and I yoink is phone and our camera so I can see pictures. Also, As if I wan’t big enough, I truly love all the swelling and water retention…




I felt like gumby as some of my feeling started to return to my lower body. Also weird..was the fact that I didn’t have a gigantic belly anymore. Don’t get me wrong, I still looked 20 weeks pregnant in the hospital. But it was so mushy. And so not baby.

A short while later, we get news that Madeline has low sugar levels. I was asked if I wanted to nurse her or if they should give her formula. I requested that she be brought to me. She latched right away and nursed for about 10 minutes on each side. It was amazing to hold my precious baby for the first time. I couldn’t wait to get my hands on Ethan.  Once my room was ready, Justin, Maddie and I went upstairs – ready to begin our 4 night stay in maternity…




There is more I”d like to remember – but I feel I’ve done enough for today. I”m over 1200 words. Sorry friends :)